v i v i a n
The emotional roller coaster I’m on since I’ve moved out here has been quite the journey for me. In the beginning, I fell so hard. It was like love at first sight and I stayed in the honeymoon stage for longer than expected. Then I got over it and was ready for my transfer. I actually did put in my transfer, but after I did, I panicked. I thought I haven’t really given this city a chance and then my transfer got denied, it felt… good. I still don’t know what I want at this age, but I don’t expect to have that figured out anytime soon. Just gotta live in the NOW!
Since I’ve been back after my vacation in Hawaii, my relationship with this city has gotten even better. I can’t imagine any other city like this place. I’ve been having really good, emotional stable days, and then sometimes I plummet. It’s not so bad though because I usually pick myself right up.
I was on a 4 day trip with two nights in Boston and a night in Raleigh. I flew with Cynthia and we became instant friends. When I got back to NYC, I was sitting at the airport for ASB a lot and I met this girl named Taylor. We bonded immediately and I ended up taking her out one night to show her around. We had so much fun doing random shit until 5am. She did break down at the end of the night though because she hasn’t been feeling NYC until she met me and I totally know how that feels. Plus she has a 3 year old at home and she’s only 24, so I can’t imagine how tough it is for her to be out here without her kid. Having her as a friend in my life made me realize that I’ve got it pretty easy with no commitments at home.
Yesterday I finally got to hang out with M again. We haven’t seen each other in so long because I’ve been traveling a lot but I made plans with him Saturday night to check out a whiskey bar in Brooklyn that I’ve been dying to go to. So the story with us, I met him one night at Hotel Chantelle, one of my favorite places in the city. He was chillin with his friends at their table. I noticed that he didn’t hit on every bitch that walked by, nor was he giving his attention to any of the girls at their table. I walked over and introduced myself because I thought he had a very.. different aura than everyone else there. It didn’t hurt that they had a table so I could get the drinks for my girls as well. There was an instant connection. We’ve kept in touch and hung out a couple times after that. So I’m back in NYC and he takes me to the whiskey bar. Kristi was already in the city with her guy so we ended up meeting up. It was kinda like.. a double date without my intention and we all had a really good time.
The next day I forced myself to get up for hot yoga and to my surprise, there was a street fair going on. I had so much fun eating random food and shopping at vintage stores. I was on my way back home, totally loving life until crew services decided to call me. I thought I was assigned a trip but they wanted me to sit at the airport once again. That’s the 9th time I’ve done it this month…. I was like COME ON, GIVE ME A BREAK. I seriously was gonna lose it. I called my supervisor and talked to her. I’m still working on not letting the little things get to me.
So I’m starting to feel like NYC is finally becoming home and I’m so thankful to have met so many amazing people already.
But…. winter is coming.
I went on so many adventures and spent a lot of time with nature. I really needed this nice vacation to get away from the craziness of NYC. D took care of me the entire trip and it feels nice to have someone plan everything so I could just sit back and enjoy the ride. We went cruising, snorkeling, kayaking, hiking, and even had a bonfire on the beach. We saw the moon rise and it was so amazing! Ate lots of fresh and organic food. Got to hang out with the locals that are his friends so I had the opportunity to learn about the history and culture of Hawaii.
Now, back to the grind.